Walking Through The Pain…

10-17am

The last 24 hours  has been quite painful. The reprieve was going through to the CCFm event in Rocklands MP yesterday. But apart from that, the mental & emotional strain of parting with Granny has been far greater than either Mike nor I imagined. It’s almost like grief. We are saying goodbye, pretty much knowing that she won’t come home. And it’s hard. I didn’t know it would be so hard.

Last night Mike & I were quite miserable. We put Granny to bed and decided we had to get out, so we thought we would cheer ourselves up by going somewhere we’ve never been before. We went to the Asian restaurant on Beach Rd. in Fish Hoek (next to Barracudas).

It was really nice and it made us feel much better. Then we came home and watched the movie “We bought a Zoo!” which was also distracting.

But this morning we woke up to again face the burden of poor Granny, who didn’t have such a good night. I gave her a refreshing shower and she seemed to think that she was going today. When I told her ‘tomorrow’ she almost appeared to be disappointed. She also is waiting to be in an environment that is more suited for a lady of her age and frailty!

So, now it’s time to pick up our mood, dump the doldrums, dry the tears, fetch the smiles, put on the cheerfulness & go and make Granny’s last day with us a happy and comfortable one. I bought her chocolate! Mike is making spaghetti bolognaise for lunch.

Once we’ve got through tomorrow, it will all be better!  Just wait 24 hours – that’s all. (See! I’m normal!)

Psalm 55:22 “Cast your burden on the Lord, and He will sustain you; He will never permit the righteous to be moved.”

Yes!

In His Grip,

Helga xx 🙂