I Have A Hard Time Quelling The Anger That Builds Up Inside Of Me

I have to admit that hearing the murder of  Jayde Panayiotou (pronounced “Pana-your-to”)  could have originated with her husband really shocked me. I should have guessed. But living in a country such as South Africa where there is crime and sometimes horrific acts of personal violence take place, it was not inconceivable to believe this was one of them. The Bible says, (Jeremiah 17:9)

“The human heart is the most deceitful of all things, and desperately wicked. Who really knows how bad it is?”

All of us sin. We all think bad thoughts sometimes.

My mind goes back to Genesis 4:7, where God had some sobering words to say to Cain:

“If you do what is right, will you not be accepted? But if you do not do what is right, sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must rule over it.”

Cain went onto murder his brother – his own flesh and blood.

Thousands of years later, the same degree of viscous personal murder is taking place.

When I read the (largely plagiarised) eulogy of Christopher Panayiotou, with the knowledge that he had been arrested for the murder and all the meaningful words were fake, I felt so heart-sore for Jayde’s family. As Mike and I were discussing it, he quoted a well known saying, that some may not know originates from the Bible. Galatians 6:7

“Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows.”

If Christopher Panayiotou is guilty, his life ahead is going to be gruesome. He will risk his life going to jail. He will risk his life if he gets off. If you sow death, you will reap death.

I have a hard time quelling the anger towards him that boils up within me. How dare he? I push down the fury with a reminder that vengeance belongs to God. He will repay. God is just and fair and no one who commits these vile crimes will get away with it.

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Even if the justice system in this country fails, ultimately, justice will be done. God is not mocked.

Again, it brings me back to the moment of time we exist on this earth. It is but a puff of dust and we are gone. But, life does not end with our final breath. There is more. As a baby in the womb has no idea of what is ahead, so we here on earth only have a vague notion as to the life we will live when our heart stops beating.

The Bible gives us an inkling. “What no eye has seen, what no ear has heard, and what no human mind has conceived — the things God has prepared for those who love him–”

If you ever want security for the future, believe in God. Trust in Him. Read His Word. The fleeting foundation of planet earth is not secure enough for me. I am grateful to have faith in Jesus Christ. I’ve read the Bible. I know what’s in that Book and I know that justice will be done and it’s not all about here.

Pray for Jayde’s family. Pray for Christopher’s family. Sometimes the closest to you will do things  you do not condone and yet you can do nothing about them. You cannot control people.

God bless you.

In His Grip,

Helga