Tuesday
Dear Elsie
Today was the day David had his 2nd round of blood work. My expectation with him and his treatment would be what the Doctor predicted. Two to three weeks on the medication would lead to a few days feeling terrible and then he would start getting better. Today marks 4 weeks on the medication. He hasn’t really felt terrible on it, but he is definitely more fatigued. In the morning, he has a bit more energy as he has had a good night sleep, but by the time the afternoon comes, he is super tired. Everything is just such a lot of work. I think the worsening fatigue is a good sign but the fact he hasn’t turned the corner is not what we want to hear.
It’s a case of lowering expectations and just waiting this out. David has mustered more patience than I. He is philosophical but last night we had a realistic conversation and it doesn’t make him feel great that China may now not happen this year. It’s a case of constantly re-evaluating his life, trying to find new things to do…things that don’t take a lot of energy. Almost everything takes a lot of energy. When he’s around, I try to stay positive. When he’s not around, I’m a mess.
The other night to get some laughter going, we looked up YouTube cat videos. They never let us down!
Today I went shopping and almost missed the rain. I got caught in a bit of a prefrontal shower. Now it’s cold and drizzly and looks set to be rainy for the few days ahead. Tomorrow Julian arrives to cheer us all up! No pressure.
I worked and now I’m off to knit.
Psalm 119:68
You are good, and what you do is good; teach me your decrees.
The other morning, I was sitting in my rocking chair. It was still dark and clouds filled the sky. As I looked up, I saw a glow of light pushing through the cloud. It was the the moon. It came into view and then another cloud covered it. It was a good reminder that even though we can’t see God, He is there.
It’s not about now – we are only passing through.
Keep the smile going.
God bless you.
In His Grip,
Gran xx 🙂