My Head Says, My Heart Says…

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Grief is an unsettled emotion.  It is unexpected. Sometimes tears, other times relief – a lightness – it’s over. I’ve experienced both. Granny was a very meaningful person to us, so despite her very old age, her lack of quality of life and her frailty, it’s still hard to believe she’s gone.  Losing an elderly person isn’t nearly as traumatic as losing someone younger – who had so much life ahead of them, of whom we say, “it wasn’t supposed to be like this,”  but even so, the finality of death is always sobering and difficult to come to terms with.

My head says, “She was 89 – it was time for her to go…”
My heart says, “She is going to leave such a big gap in our lives.”
My head says, “This is how it is supposed to be – people grow old and die before their children.”
My heart says, “Death is so final – I cannot stroke her face again.”
My head says, “She had no quality of life – she couldn’t stay.”
My heart says, “She unwittingly provided such purpose for our lives.”
My head says, “It is wonderful there are no regrets.”
My heart says, “I wish I had been there to hold her hand as she crossed into eternity.”
My head says, “She died old and full of years.”
My heart says, “She served God and man for all the years of her life but death is so cold and final.”
My head says, “She’s in heaven – you’ll see her again.”
My heart says, “She’s dancing on streets of gold – reunited with beloved family, rejoicing in the presence of Jesus.”
My head says, “You would have it no different – you wouldn’t want her back as she was.”
My heart says,  “There’s a hole in my heart – an emotional ache.”
My head says, “To God be the glory for her life.”
My heart says, “To God be the glory for her life.”

“Do not hurry as you walk with grief, it does not help the journey. Walk slowly, pause often and be gentle with the one who walks with grief. If it is you, be gentle with yourself.”

Matthew 5:4

“Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.”

God bless you!

In His Grip,

Helga xx 🙂