12-00
It’s 12 noon and I’m still in my pajamas in bed. Hours and hours have passed since I woke up. What have I done today? I fed the cat, made Mike coffee and we watched the end of a movie we started last night. Then Mike got up and got dressed and went to his home office to do some computer progamming. I stayed right where I am. I did my Bible reading. Then I went onto FB and scrolled through the newsfeed. I read Lauren’s blog on her LCHF journey. I updated the CCFm Rise and Shine Facebook page and I answered some email. Then I did my show prep.
I was hungry so I had some nuts. And now it’s 12 noon.
When I look in the mirror, I see the passing of time drifting across my face. Yesterday, I was at the hairdresser and I asked her if I needed to colour my hair…’No’ she said, ‘Not yet. There are a few grey hairs beginning to pop up but you’ve been very lucky.’ I’m 48 and 192 days. I’m amazingly blessed to be saving on hair colour! But I see the extra lines around my eyes and the sagging of my mouth, although having said that, I had a big compliment from David yesterday. He visited and I was talking about someone who had plastic surgery to prevent the droop around their mouth – creating a permanent smile. It hadn’t turned out all that well, “but I can understand wanting it”, I said, “I’m beginning to see the sag.” David replied, “No Mom, you don’t sag – you smile too much.” 🙂
The passing of time is almost insidious…yet it comes upon us suddenly – very quickly, the children are grown and we find ourselves echoing words of our parents so many years ago, ‘where have the years gone?’ I reflect on whether I enjoyed and appreciated the past enough. I wrack my brain for the happiest time of my life and I realise that I enjoyed it all. That God has blessed me all the days of my life – the 27 years I have spent with Mike have been the happiest of all. That while I have been walking with the Lord, I have feared no evil, that He has bought me to pleasant places, that in Him, I have found rest for my soul. Knowing Jesus Christ is the foundation for happiness and contentment. Now that I am 48 and 192 days, I have greater perspective. There have been troublesome times in my life. There has been pain and death and grief and tears, yet overall, it has been an abundantly happy life. The God I serve has met me at the point of every need, has reassured me at the death of every loved one, has strengthened me through the difficulty of every hardship. We won’t escape any of those in this life, but when we have a connection with the Creator, we know we have an answer to our concerns and comfort in our times of trouble.
Yes getting older is not that bad and having a so-called ‘lazy morning’ is maybe just the rest I need to keep perspective in life, to refresh my brain and my body, to embrace the moment and to continue the quest of ‘learning to be content in all my circumstances.’
Psalm 90:1-2 You have been our dwelling place throughout all generations. Before the mountains were born or you brought forth the whole world, from everlasting to everlasting you are God.
And with that having been said, Mike has come up and asked if I would like to go with him to the driving range to hit some golf balls! 🙂
Off to make another memory!
God bless you!
In His Grip,
Helga xx 🙂