1-19pm
Mike has spent the last two nights away at a conference. We are seldom apart at night, so this was not a familiar experience. Being alone. It made me feel very sorry for those women who have lost husbands, particularly in the last year and who are still adjusting to being alone. Mike is a wonderful provider, support, best friend and is extremely dependable, but not for everything! And Mike can’t depend on me for everything either. I can’t depend on Mike to fulfill all my emotional needs. I am a complex female! He just can’t be everything I need. I can’t depend on him for spiritual security – knowing and loving Mike isn’t going to get me into heaven. His amazing relationship with God isn’t going to get me into heaven either. I need to know God for that to happen. I can’t depend on him forever. In the natural course of events, I am hoping that in about 30 or 40 years time, the day will come when I will kiss my husband for the last time and he will slip painlessly into eternity. He will be at a very advanced old age! 😉 I will be old too, and I will find myself alone. True security is only found in God. 
I am glad to say, my beloved is home tonight and I will appreciate his company and presence more than I usually do. Mike had many years alone prior to meeting and marrying me. For this reason, I enjoy a great deal of his gratitude and appreciation towards my company. I am cherished. 🙂
Three things about yesterday’s blog: 1.Criticism comes with the territory and I understand that. I want to be teachable and open to suggestions. 2. After I wrote and posted the blog, I have to say I felt very vulnerable. It’s not easy to bare one’s soul and reveal emotional fragility. I have received dozens of messages to encourage me and want to say thank you. You know me better than I know you and that’s always a bit strange for me. I’m not used to being felt sorry for! Mike read my blog and said of it, ‘This is so unlike Helga – my poor wife!’ Oh dear! One bad day! Thank you Jesus that they don’t come along too often! 3. Everything is relative. My ‘bad’ day is a walk in the park for someone who has cancer.
Inspiration from FB…
Ezekiel 36:26 And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh.
Thanks for reading!
God bless you!
In His Grip,
Helga xx 🙂