Granny Update…

12-18pm

It seems my blogs are being posted earlier and earlier! I am sitting at the Blue Route, hidden away in Woolworths little restaurant, right at the back where I can see everyone! I have had a large cappuccino and a salad for lunch. The salad was very interesting…take a look….

Those pink things (next to the sweetcorn) are blanched radish slices, which were actually very nice. The pale brown things to the left of the radishes, are, believe it or not, little fragments of chips, salt n vinegar, I think. So much for thinking I was ordering a carb free salad. Anyway, it was jolly good!

Early yesterday evening, Mike & I bade farewell to Julian and Peter who headed off for the airport, kindly taken by David. I tried to get hold of the airline to see if Peter would be taking off, but I couldn’t get through. I heard nothing more so was keen this morning to log onto the internet to see if he had got off okay. He had…here is his aeroplane over Nigeria, I think….

The sunrise this morning was spectacular. A beautiful day was ahead…

After the show, I did music prep and some admin and then came here. I thought I would give you a Granny update. You can take a peak inside my head. I wrote down my prayers this morning, something I sometimes do, although it makes the prayer time a lot shorter! When you write your prayers, you pray less in the allocated time, but you pray more intentionally, if you get my drift.  Praying about Granny is a great relief. The Lord knows my heart. So here’s the prayer I prayed this morning…

“Oh Lord forgive me for the way I have been feeling and thinking about Mom (aka Granny). Something has changed. It is very difficult now for me to do this on my own. She needs greater care. My heart is in turmoil right now over her. On the one hand, I promised her – I told her, ‘you will die under this roof’ and now, Lord, it looks like I can’t fulfil this promise. It’s hard for me to come to terms with that.”

And then a short while later, something happened – I started getting the thoughts of ability to cope. I only have Granny, after all. Mike & I make a great team in looking after her. I continued:

“Just for today, I am able to do all that I need to do because of You. Your grace abounds in my life. Your Holy Spirit fills my soul, strengthening, encouraging, motivating and giving me peace. Thank you Jesus for this day. Thank you for Your love, for Your peace, for the quietness of this moment, for Your presence. Thank you, that I don’t have to worry…”

Prayer! What a gift.

2 Corinthians 10:5 which I’ve quoted a number of times, came to mind. I need to be reminded of it. Today one word jumped out…

“We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive (here it comes) EVERY (EVERY? EVERY!) thought to make it obedient to Christ.”

Hectic hey!? EVERY thought!

So who knows what will happen with Granny, but I’m happy to leave it in God’s hands, knowing that He has the whole solution. Meantime, with each day that I am called to care for her, care for her I shall. “For such a time as this.” “I can’t but God can.” still scrawled across my bathroom mirror in red lipstick, seen daily. It’s tough. I want to give up. She is going to the Ladies Christian Home on Thursday for 4 nights. Part of me would prefer her to stay there, but I know that Monday she will come home and we will continue.

This is life folks. How grateful I am for Mike. He phones me up and says, “I’m taking Friday off…I’ve got hold of the LCH…we are going away for the weekend. YOU need a break!” What a treasure!

So Granny is very frail. She has difficulty getting up and walking.  She needs help in all aspects of her hygiene as well as getting dressed and undressed. She can’t make herself tea or toast. BUT!!!

SHE LOVES TO EAT!!!!

There’s nothing wrong with her appetite! 🙂

We keep our sense of humour!

God bless!!

You are in His Grip,

Love Helga 🙂